The midwife was my mental guide to the journey

Where did you give birth or where was the birth you witnessed?
Manchester

Can you describe where your/the birth was?

I was in a hospital room. I had to move when in advanced labour to another room and fluid spread.

Who was present at your/the birth?
Me, my sister, the twins dad, and many others

Can you describe the experience of giving birth or watching the birth?
It was very simple but there were so many professionals there. When I gave birth to the first twin which was a girl a Greek doctor man held the second twin in place inside my womb so I could give birth to him head down.

My sister was crying and the midwife was my mental guide to the journey. I wish the room had been darker. I felt completely capable of delivering the babies but also completely terrified about how I could possibly cope with two. I breast fed the girl very soon after birth and was in terrible pain with after pains and the same day after moving wards 3 times I had to return home with both babies who were healthy.

I wish for many things around my birth of twins but I console myself that they are alive and thriving now aged 3. I try not to focus on the sadness that surrounds this time for me. It was very hard and I still can’t make sense of what happened. It feels so out of my control and so different from the birh of my son 9 years earlier which was a wonderful experience in the same ward.

I did not have much say in what happened and I felt extremely isolated, especially after the birth when i was alone, bleeding on one side of the room with both babies under hot lamps on the other side, unable to reach them. I feel so sad and emotional thinking of this strange, lonely experience. I wish I had been stronger and sought more assistance or private care.

 

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